Update-Saturday: Ok so I said yesterday morning I would have a chance to get on and catch up. As you can see that didn't happen. It's amazing how far one can drop from heaven to hell in a matter of hours. Let me explain:
Friday started out great, work, then going shopping to find something nice and memorable for Wesley for graduation. It's been a grueling 4 years. Our marriage has suffered and we have both struggled, I struggled with depression and jealousy of him spending time with another girl from school and just his general "other life of school" that I was not a part of. Graduation means we get to move on from all that-he can finally get a full time professional job, and our "real" lives can start, we can find a ROUTINE-God knows how much I was consistency. So-finding a gift that represented something was important.
I drive around all afternoon-nothing-can't find anything and don't even have any ideas. Wesley in the mean time is at - that girls - dorm helping her move...yes I've moved on and I'm better than that so I didn't fuss, just resolved in my heart to be supportive, I trust my husband. So in the mean time I knew I had time to shop. Can't find anything though so I go to my parents house for dinner and to use their internet to get ideas. I got one! A rustic style leather brief case, one he could use as a professor and have the rest of his life and will always remember I gave it to him for his graduation. Great!! Problem 1 solved, I know what I want to get him. Problem 2-where we need to go look for one is an hour and a half away. Ok, thats fine, we can do it for Wesley-it's worth it. It just means I will be getting home late on the eve of his graduation.
So we go and shop at the Leather Outlet store called Wilson Leathers in Colonial Williamsburg and thankfully I find a beautiful bag just before closing time, one right in my price range. Everyones so excited. Wesley's already home so I make the almost 2 hour journey home. It's almost midnight. Eve of graduation right? I get home and he's on the couch, lap top in hand, email open. "I just got this email." *reads email-email states the following -abbreviated-* "Dear Mr. Baines, we are sorry to inform you on such a late notice that due to your excessive absences, you were withdrawn from class *whatever* 2 weeks ago. It was our mistake in not notifying you sooner and we apologize for the inconvenience *really?* but you will not be graduating tomorrow." Yeah, seriously. Those "excessive absences" were 2 absences, and 2 tardies that equaled 1 absence, the tardies being form him stuck in totally stopped traffic and hour away from school-totally out of his hands. And apparently his school has a 3 absences you're out policy. Talk about hitting a brick wall. We are crushed, disappointing, confused, depressed, and tons of other feelings. Just a month ago he heard back from the 5 grad schools he applied to that he didn't get in anywhere. His dreams are crumbling around him, which means mine are as well because I totally support him doing this. But how can we do it when it seems every force out there is trying it's hardest to make it not happen. This is our LIFE we are playing with. We feel stuck and that it'll never happen yet we know is just HAS to happen because there is nothing else. (the dream is he wants to be an English professor by the way if you don't know already) He did GREAT grade wise in the classes. A's and 1 B this semester. But because we live an hour and a half from school in a free house (which is why we don't move) his college career suffered.
So we don't know whats next. I have only 1 more month with my school kids working part time before the summer comes and then I have to find something else or we will have 0 income. Wesley has to find a job, he's already applied to who knows how many - a lot- And then next fall he retakes that class that he was with drawn from. Monday he's going to the school to debate the issue and see if there's any possible way.
By the way. We went anyway to the graduation today just so he could see his friends walk but I don't know if that was a good idea. It was so sad. And outside, and windy and raining. Go figure.
So now my story is over and you can know what's happened to me within the worst 24 hours of my entire life. We feel like someone's died and we've been at the funeral all day. At least he loved his bag, I gave it to him anyway. He completed the degree in my eyes. He's just been through so much. 4 years of hateful military, and 4 years of schooling that's not given him a break at all. We're just tired of fighting, so tired. I might have to find homes for my dogs Sully, Eva, and Zack if we move to the city and can't find some place that accepts pets.
I'll probably open for commissions soon just to see if I can earn some cash once school is up. My horses will just have to sit quietly in their stalls until my life finds some ounce of normalcy.
*Update-Firday Whoooaa!! What a crazy two weeks it's been. Just a quick update before I head to work. My internet is back up but I continue to have a busy weekend. Saturday I have to rise and shine at 5am because WESLEY'S GRADUATING YEEEEEYYY!!! Been a really long 4 years for us. Tons of other stuff going on but for now that's the big thing. I was working a lot these pasted two weeks because we've had a teacher out and since I'm kind of the fill in I did my job plus hers. But it's been really fun. Getting to be with the kids all day has made me feel closer to them and I'd like to think that I'm the "more fun teacher"
(I'm just the teacher's assistant for anyone who doesn't know) But I picked up a new sport-freeze tag. Let me tell you, those kids are ruthless!!! It's like freeze tag to the death. You're not really playing until someone's bleeding. lol K-it's Friday though. I HAVE to clean my house tonight, it's suffered, but then after that I'll be on tonight to hang out, answer comments and spread love. Specially over in the
Hey lovelies, just letting you know I don't have internet at my house right now so anything I do I have to do while I'm at work or after - like now. SO I will get around d to responding and updating the show soon. Thank you for your understanding and cooperation! Miss everyone, home is boring without you.